Ok so all I want to do now is take extremely long walks on the beach with someone.

The shoreline stretched for miles omg I promised myself that I would walk as far as I could down the beach.

And I just want to play guitar

And read a book

And make cheesecake

And play violin

lalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaa

But I have to make sure I keep my grades up and get a 2400 on my SAT boohoo :(

lol, no.

lol, the other day my dad was telling me how my cousin got an 800 on math and chem and I flat out told him “oh well then you should go get yourself a daughter who brings you 800s on SAT tests.”

I guess he felt bad because he shut up and started being extra nice.

I’m such a bitch to my dad when it comes to these conversation

but honestly, stop provoking me. 

Don’t tell me you’re proud of me one second and tell me that my SAT scores suck the next.

I mean, I’m being serious when I say go find a daughter who brings you 800s. 

Like what do you want me to do.

I hate studying for tests.

When I am down,

And oh my soul, so weary. 

Ok so to be honest, I have a natural tendency to dislike judgmental people.

I can’t say that I’m completely innocent, though; I’m only human. 

But if you don’t know me, don’t start assuming things.

Because I promise you that I always look at the best side of people so I’d appreciate it if you did the same. 

Emptiness. 

I think that emptiness is terrifying. It can really kill you.

Suddenly, death seems so much nearer and desirable.

Whatever it takes to fill the void- or destroy it altogether. 

Except studying for finals but who does that?…

I’ll get started with my college essay a little bit early. Off to commonapp…….

I’m probably going to write a gazillion and have people read them to see which one they like the best. Meeh